Subject: FanFic
Title: Online
Length: oneshot
Author: evilgirl89
Rating: Pg
Genre: failed crack
Pairing:Yunjae

Summery: Jaejoong saw it online and he must have it.

Warning: Perverts its not what you're thinking.


- Disclaimer: I do not own them only my Fantasies.


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Title: N.B.S.B.
Rating: PG, PG13?
Pairing: Yunho/Jaejoong (and bits of Yoochun/Junsu)
Summary: Kim Jaejoong was 23 years old and has had no boyfriend since birth. Enter Jung Yunho and an offer he can't refuse.
A/N: Um, first ever DBSK fanfic so please be nice? ^^ This is also unbetaed so I apologize for any mistakes I made.
Disclaimer: Real people belong to themselves so I guess I can't own them ever.

Prologue , Chapter 1 , Chapter 2 , Chapter 3 , Chapter 4 , Chapter 5

( Chapter 6 )

I know this is going to sound odd but I'm really really frustrated with my hearing right now. Frankly, I hear too well. Either that or my family members are very very loud, though I suspect the former. I can hear almost all of what they say at any given time. the room I'm staying in has what is obviously painted card board for walls and there's an inch gap below the door that lets all the sound in. I could transcribe their conversations for them if they'd like. Talked while in the bathroom with the shower running? No problem, I heard that verbatim too.
I'm really tired of it, and it's stressing me out. I don't *want* to know everything that goes on in this house! It's no right of mine to be privy to it all in such an intimate way! In addition, there's a lot of drama that just goes on in the daily dealings and I hear all of that too. And, I'm not unaffected. It's really starting to stress me out. I don't want to constantly hear the emotion in my mother's voice or my sister's or my father's, when they're in another room and think no one can hear.
When they're home I want to drown in music or television or the computer, or hide in the room with music and tv on the computer just so I DON'T HEAR. It's bad enough that even with all those things, if someone is in the next room I feel like an eve's dropper. I feel guilty for it too, like I've done something wrong by listening, but I can't stop.
Gouging cue-tips in my ears or walking around with ear plugs in are both looking like viable options.
I want to be like them, can't hear someone from the other side of the house even when they yell, have to turn the tv up loud to understand the words, can sleep through conversations and music being on.
And, you know what else? I wish I didn't feed off other people's emotions. I wish it wasn't the case that the only time I feel peace is when I'm alone or with someone very calm.
I feel like I have very bad character that even the emotions of people I don't really know effect me.
I keep thinking about that verse about being tossed about by the waves. Will I ever be steady? Will I ever be a rock?
Or, am I doomed to always be like the shifting sand? A place where no one can rest their feet without danger of falling.

I'm also frustrated with my father right now. He seems to be very contrary. Which is an improvement, but still difficult sometimes. If I feel like a failure he's very encouraging. If I feel like I'm doing something great or succeeding than he's going to be like "meh, it's ok, not very good, but ok," or "you know what you're doing wrong here," or "these are all the ways you're going to fail/can't succeed/things are going to mess up." Maybe I should just pretend to not like myself around him all the time so I can hear the good things, so he doesn't feel the need to "balance" me.

Also, I feel resigned to Korea, and conflicted. I wonder if my overall less-than-great experience was my fault. I failed so much, maybe it was all my fault. I got involved in office politics and I didn't make many friends and I didn't make the one church I could attend into a priority. Maybe when I go back it'll be great. Or maybe I'll waste another year. Maybe I'm going back because I'm mediocre, maybe this is only a step up from Starbucks working self-flagulation. Maybe I'm such a discontent that I'll never be happy anywhere I go. Maybe all this is just more proof of my failed character. And it is failed, so epicly.

And hearing other people's conversations really sucks.

And I don't like that I don't know what I'm great at. Say I'm good at writing all you want, when I do try and write something for real it's only average, not excellent, and I have no niche. And, also, I'm a big fat coward. It's one thing to not impress lay-people, it would be another thing to have a real editor laugh in my face.
And, it bothers me that sometimes when I'm talking to people, especially about personal things, I'll close my eyes or look at the floor. It feels like a very slimy thing to do, a very avoidant thing to do. It feels like a behavior from my cutter days still clinging to me, and I've notice that other self- injurers do it too. And it evokes a feeling character being lacking in the other person, or a sense of deception or acting. I'm not saying it is those things, but I've been on the recieving end and I hate the fact that I still do it anyway.

I feel stuck, I always feel stuck. And I feel like a big fat sinner for thinking of myself so much.

Title: “The Aurum of Vanadis”

Author: Karerusan

Genre: Drama, Epic, Action, Fantasy

Ratings: pg13/ nc17

Pairings: YunJae + OT5 and others

Summary: Legend has it that once you have the Aurum or the philosophers’ stone, the stone of life and death, you can conquer the world, five legendary heroes must protect it in order to prevent chaos, but what will happen if they found out that one of them is beholding it? The legend of Vanadis is awakening…

A/U: here is the second installation of the Characters, the Arsenikos or the bad guys, it took time finding pictures but glad I’ve finished it, so here it is!

Character Profiles 1
Character Profiles 2

Title: The way we change
Author: jaejaelover33
Rating: PG
Pairing: YunJae,
Genre: angst, drama
Length: 9/?
Summary: Yunho is the popular kid, the one everyone looks up to. The one everyone worships and chases after. He lives normally, as normal as any jock could. But when the new kid comes to school, Kim Jaejoong, life as he knew it stops, hits reverse, and turns Yunho's world upside down.
1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9

the old scars that hadn't healed properly, the burns, the gashes just starting to scab, the dark purple bruises.

I watched them on the Magnae Rebellion show and OMFG is it hilarious! It also made me like Seunghyun from FTI and Dongho from U-kiss. Seunghyun is just so stupid it's endearing and Dongho is adorable ^^ Anyway so there were two parts in particular that I wanted to cut from the show so I did and I made a vid out of it ^^ I should also have a DBSK vid coming soon, just need to find a song that will work with it ^^

lmfao So, I dunno when this came out, but I just saw it- Idol Army ep14 with SHINee. What else do I have to say? They are all so freaking adorable, it was hilarious. CROSSOVER SOMEONE. The best part is, Jaebom is there ^^*



The other parts are on the playlist as well as Minho Nickhun cuts XD

~ Now to study for exammmsss ugh

HELLO (: please give me links to yunjae fics with a unique plot ^^
angst would be great [but doesnt have to be];D and any rating is okay ^^

and please, well written fics only :3


please and thankyou!

Selena's new music video for 'Naturally'....i love it, adore it even.

all the effects really remind me of AAA's 'Break Down' PV from earlier this year.

so totally addicted to this song 'Crazily Pretty' by DNT (dragon n' tigger)...also addicted to Dong-Wook from it, whose apparently a new member. Problem is they only have one mini album on yesasia and its only with 2 of them and this song is their comeback from this summer but no one seems to know them

so if any one on my friends list does...or anyone in general. please tell me about them and where to find more info about them.

eng. Sub Mv for 'crazily pretty'