Title: Hidden
Pairings: JaeMin, YooSu
Rating: PG-13ish
Notes: Longest chapter yet! Seriously, almost twice the length of some of the previous chaps. Maybe a sign that they'll be longer like this from here on out? *grins* And, um, yes. I apologize in advance. Don't hurt me. *hides*
Summary: Sequel to Possession. Falling can mean so many things: falling into his arms, falling in love, falling out, falling to pieces, falling apart...
Previous: Possession,
Bonus Scenes, Falling:
Part 1,
Part 2,
Part 3,
Part 4,
Part 5,
Poetry,
Part 6,
Part 7,
Part 8
Chapter 9: Hidden
You don't remember falling asleep. In fact, you'd had the best of intentions of composing for only a few hours then carting Junsu to bed. Obviously, you'd lost track of time. And consciousness.
You'd forgotten what originally got you so worked up until you saw Min shuffle into the kitchen. Oh yeah. That. He looks like shit. After what he put all of you through yesterday, though, you can't really find it in yourself to feel sorry for him. You feel bad for not feeling bad.
Junsu leans against your shoulder as you drink your coffee. One of your hands wraps around his waist while the other raises your mug to your mouth. "I don't know what you're brooding about," he murmurs into your ear, "but I don't think it's anything good. Stop staring at Min like you want to burn a hole in his intestines."
Blinking, quirking your lips up into some kind of smile, you shift slightly to press a kiss to his temple. "I'm sorry, SuSu. Guess I didn't totally sleep off everything." You would elaborate further, but Jae and Min sit down at the table with their own breakfasts at that point.
Changmin keeps his eyes focused on his food as he pushes his cereal around in his bowl. Like the toasted oats and marshmallows hold all the answers in the world, the meaning of life, the cure for the common cold. The very fact that he has yet to take a single bite alerts you to the fact that maybe he's more upset by yesterday's incident than you'd originally assumed.
(When you'd gotten home, found him sound asleep on his bed, you'd been more angry than you can ever remember being before. To think he'd blown the four of you off, made you sick with worry, just so he could stay home and pout over something that was his own fault anyway…
And then you'd realized you were also still upset over him breaking up with Jae, hurting Jae as much as he had. Then to see Jae just forgive him and sit faithfully by his bedside, it nearly made you sick with the force of your anger.)
"Min." Jae's soft word catches your attention right along with Changmin's. He lifts his head to look at Jae. "Food doesn't do you any good unless you actually eat it." Min blinks at him for a second, almost as if he doesn't quite comprehend the gentle tease, then turns back to his food. But the words obviously had some effect, since he raises the spoon to his mouth for a small bite.
Jae smiles softly at him, the expression both proud and loving and sad all at the same time. Unfortunately, the smile doesn't last. Changmin only manages a few more bites before standing up abruptly and rushing from the room. The four of you stare after him, no one daring to make the first move.
It doesn't take long for you to get sick of the feeling of eggshells under your feet. You push away from the table and follow Min down the hall. Faintly, you can hear the sounds of the other three coming behind you.
Changmin stands in his bedroom, gripping the edge of his dresser and panting like he's just run a marathon. A distant voice in the far left corner of your mind tells you that, not three days ago, you would have been so worried to see him in this state. You can't seem to find the same concern in you anymore. "What the hell, Changmin?"
He raises wide eyes to look at you, a kind of deer-in-the-headlights stare. "It's almost like you're absolutely determined to screw everything up lately! First you're in love with Jae, then you're breaking up with Jae. Then you skip practice to stay home and what? Catch up on your beauty sleep? Did it help any, Min?"
"Yoochun!" Yunho's voice distracts you for a moment. You spare him a quick glance before turning back to glare at Changmin. He's back to staring at the floor, deftly avoiding your stare. Normal-Min would have fought and argued back, given as good as he was getting. This Changmin doesn't even try, and that fact just seems to make you even more irritated.
You stalk over to him, stand right in front of him to make sure he can't ignore you. You're close enough to see his eyes flicker in your direction before fixing on the floor again. "So, what? Can't even bother to answer me now? Bet you're thinking you're just too good for us or something. Hell, maybe you've always thought that. Now you're just showing your true colors."
His breathing quickens as he blinks rapidly. He still won't answer you, though, won't even acknowledge that you're speaking to him. A sound of impatience escapes the back of your throat. "You know what? Whatever. I don't even care anymore. For all I'm concerned, you should've just stayed lost."
Changmin's eyes drift shut and he slowly collapses to his knees. You watch dispassionately, think maybe he's finally realized what he's done and become. The truth hurts, right? So focused on Min, you don't even realize Jaejoong's moving until he's standing right in front of you and your cheek is stinging.
You stare at him in shock. The two of you have had your fights before, and you know you can be an infuriating ass when arguing with someone. But he's never hit you before. Never. Not even in times when you were positive you deserved so much more. Not until now. "Jae…"
His eyes are cold, glaring at you as if you're the lowest form of life on the planet. And in that moment, you feel it. "Get out." He hisses the sentence at you, and it seems like something that should actually physically hurt. Like coarse sandpaper raked over a fresh burn. You turn and walk from the bedroom.
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Comments
Poor Yoochun..I can't really blame him for being an ass here..he really cares for Jae and I think he felt bad for Jae for what Min is doing to him...
Argh!! I dunno who I wanna smack now..Min? Yoochun? Jae? You? argh!!!
(will be back tmr morning for a more better comment, as in not 3AM in the morning right now)
Only one at a time, pwease??Um, um, um... *cringes* I guess, well, all of the above? If smacking people around will really make you feel better? *grins nervously, runs away*
*chase you with flying durians instead for torturing Min, Jae, Chun, Su , Ho and US!!!!
*stops, looks back* The torture will end!! Eventually. Someday.... Promise!! *continues running away*
I'll be hanging on to this promise to pull me thru all the angst and heartbreak that I get from this fic of yours yeah *pinky promise*
*meanwhile, continue to chase with flying durians*
ps: dun worry much about the durians, I've selected all the mini size one...
Poor Changmin. I wonder if he'll get better. :/
Ah, who's going to have the brunt of the possible permanent consequences? Do you mean consequences for Min or for Yoochun or for both?
Really, it's going to be consequences all around. A person can't say something like that, fueled by so much anger and intent to hurt, without causing serious damage. Min will have to figure out how to relate to Chun now. Jae, being so protective over Min, will also be looking at Chun in a new light. Chun will (hopefully) realize exactly what he did and have to deal with the fall out. And Yunho and Su will be affected by all of this just for the simple fact that they care about all three. It's messy.
And that was quite possibly more of an answer than you were looking for... *blinks*
after having gone through nine chapters of this fic, i am beginning to appreciate your method of using everyone's POV for each chapter.
if it had been stuck at just one person's POV, we wouldn't be able to see just how complicated the matter at hand is. we might think that min is selfish for letting his issues affect everyone without seeing that the one who is struggling the most is him.
nobody is right or wrong in this, because feelings are just too complicated like that. yunho's realization at the end of the previous chapter sort of made everything clearer.
ok..sorry for rambling. :P
When I first started Possession, I was really unsure about the changing POV's. I wasn't sure if it would just be too much information and thus too confusing. It's good to see that the switch-up gamble is paying off.
Hey, if all ramblings came in this form, I'd be happy to read more of 'em. *grins*
Okay, that comment may look wrong, but I think I understand what you mean. *grins* So thank you!
I can't figure out how to side with anymore! Min is so fragile and Jae is so... devastated and Yoochun is so angry. For a good reason.
...Perhaps I'll just side with Yunho and Su, that'll make it all easier. ^^ *feels bad for dumping Min* Or not.
I thought you were going to write this chapter while being in a fluffy mood? The only fluffiness I saw was the YooSu. >< What happened?
Then to see Jae just forgive him and sit faithfully by his bedside, it nearly made you sick with the force of your anger. I could so sympathise with Chun right there. ♥
I'm itching to read what happens next! Can't wait, can't wait, can't wait! (although the angst may not be good for me... I don't care).
Brilliant and lovely as always, y'know. 8DD
It's definitely a complicated thing. So many emotions flying around, and no one's really dealing with them in a healthy or constructive way. *sighs*
It started out fluffy, at least! So I tried, right? But then Chun got angry and just let his feelings control the rest of the chapter.
Yeah, Chunnie definitely has a good reason to be angry. On the other hand, just... Yeah, I dunno. It's tough.
I'll have the next as soon as possible. (Deep breaths and some happy music, we'll all get through the angst together. *nods*)
Thank you, m'dear! ^___^
I think I'm about to faint or something from the amount of times I've held my breath throughout this chapter. >.< Yoochun, I want to be angry at him for making this worse for Changmin...but I can see where he's coming from. But gosh~what he said is soo not going to make things any easier...on any of them.
Yea, I'm kinda in the same place as you with Chun. At first, I wanted to be mad at him, but... *shrugs* It's certainly not going to make anything easier, that's for sure.
first off, OMG OMG OMG, so much suspense in this chapter! is it me or is yoochun starting to hate min? hmmm. though i would like to say min is being very inconsiderate myself, but chun shouldn't have said those mean words to min. that boy needs time! and jae, gosh, he hit chun!!!!
i really like the yoosu moment that you put in the beginning. ^^ now i can't wait for the next part!!
Ahh, the YooSu... Yeah, I just couldn't make the whole chap angst, and the YooSu are just too cute. Don't know if even I could angst-ify them. *grins*
I'm gonna try to start on the next chap. After I get my homework done... >_< Sooo, hopefully out soon. *grins*
Okay Im gonna breath in and out and go to finish reading.
this is getting really good. I can't sleep till I've finished up to your latest chapter!!
that's all i can say now. *__*
-mark first chap in this series to make me cry-
-runs off in hope that this story gets happier-