Title: Doubt
Pairings: JaeMin, YooSu
Rating: PG-13ish
Notes: Well, kinda short-ish. Jae wasn't as talkative as he was in Possession... *shrugs* Next part is almost finished already, so that should be out relatively soon.
Summary: Sequel to Possession. Falling can mean so many things: falling into his arms, falling in love, falling out, falling to pieces, falling apart...
Previous: Possession,
Bonus Scenes, Falling:
Part 1
Part 2: Doubt
You know they think you don't notice, and you let them believe that. You also know they don't say anything about it because they each hope they're only imagining things. Hope like that should be preserved, in your opinion, so you don't mention it to them either.
Things have changed between Min and you. Or maybe they haven't and that's the whole problem. You remember when things were so tense and unhappy, but it got better after you two finally got together. He was happy. Wasn't he? Maybe you only thought so because it was what both you and he wanted you to see.
Either way, he'd at least seemed happy. He started to relax, smiled and laughed in your presence. He confessed fears and insecurities you couldn't have even imagined. And you told him you loved him, that everything would work out and be okay, that you'd never let him go because you couldn't imagine yourself without him now that you'd finally gotten hold of him.
He doesn't tell you much of anything anymore. He's not ignoring you by any means, which is why you can still pretend everything is fine. But he no longer confides in you the way he used to. You think it's only a little change, but it seems significant all the same. Is this how it started last time?
So you take to watching him -- again -- to pick up any clues that might help you figure out your Minnie. And you wonder when he got so good at being everything to everyone without being anything for himself. You wonder when, exactly, the rest of you accepted the act as reality.
It hurts, you realize. It hurts to find that you never really knew the one person that means more to you than just about anyone. Not that you doubt the sincerity of his feelings for you. You don't, not even for a second. But you do think about how many secrets he probably hasn't told you.
And then he starts pushing you away, sometimes quite literally. You try to hold him, and he wiggles his way out of the embrace like it hurts him. Maybe he realizes you suspect something is less than right. Maybe he's just tired of keeping up appearances. At one time, you would have thought you knew his reasoning. Now, you can't even begin to guess.
As he walks from the kitchen after dinner with hardly a word, the other three turn to you. Yoochun and Junsu seem simply curious; Yunho looks downright concerned. "Jae? What's going on?"
You blink before slouching further down in your chair. "I… I'm not exactly sure. He just…" You sigh, searching for words to explain the situation. But you don't even fully understand the situation. "I really don't know."
All three offer to talk to him, try to figure out what's wrong. If anything is wrong in the first place. You contemplate letting them try. Min's shutting you out, but that doesn't mean he'll do the same to them. This could be your path to fixing the problem.
On the other hand, what if this problem can't be fixed? The way things are now, at least you have him. You can call him yours. If this issue is bigger than you can handle, will you still be able to say that?
You turn them down and walk to your room to get ready for the day. You hate that you want to hate him for turning you into this, so unsure and scared. You hate that you allow those feelings to interfere with what you know you should do. And still you know you wouldn't trade him for anything.
End.
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Comments
I've always love the Possesion installment...It started all so happy and now it's all angst!! Argh!!! I feel like pulling my hair out after reading this..I feel so frustrated for Jae and feel so bad for Min. Yet at the same time, I'm angry at Min for pushing away that one person that could help him and show him the path to real love and care...
dreaming_col dearie, how long do you intend to torment poor Min, Jae and me? sigh..
Yeah, Min... He's complicated. He has a reason for doing what he's doing. Not saying it's a good one, but it makes sense in his mind.
Hmm... I dunno. I would say after this fic, but In the Loneliness is pretty angsty, too, soo... *shrugs*
Hopefully I won't make you wait too long. I'm on Winter Break now, so plenty of time to write. ^__^
v.v
By the way, this is
And you don't wish too much. I'm wishin' the same thing. *grins*
Good to know I'm not the only one wishing. We can wish together then. :D
There's always something wrong with that guy, isn't there? T___T
And this time he's taking it out on Jae... Psssh. *bricks Min*
Thanks a lot
As far as how many there'll be... Honestly, I have no clue. I don't think it'll be quite as long as Possession, but it could surprise me. We'll just have to wait it out and see where it goes. *grins*